Where are you??

I lost my Bible. Been few months now and I am still looking for it. The feeling of losing a Bible, my companion of more than 6 years, is like losing your beloved pet. No amount of new Bible can ever come to replace it.

So many highlighted quotes in it. So many photos inside.

Shooting Star

I saw a shooting star while lepaking outside Sean's house last Sunday. The shoot was rather a slow travel yet it disappeared in a nick of time. Took me about 5 seconds to digest that it's actually a shooting star because I initially thought it was a firework.

And that was my 5th shooting star experience in my humble life. I remember being fascinated with it the first time I saw it 11 years ago. I was in Form 5 and gazing at the sky in wee late hour was kinda my thing. I remember what I had wished on that first time.

And that wish came true after a week! The senior I had my crush on responded saying that he always had an interest on me but was too shy to tell..

But oh well, of course no monkey love will ever last.

The second one landed me having my first kiss. It happened when I was in my Uni time. He became my first love, my first kiss.

The 3rd shooting stars happened in Uni time as well but the 4th one was the most significant of all. It was the biggest shooting star compared to the previous. It happened few weeks before I met The Hubby. I was deeply depressed with the relationship I had with the policeman ( i did mention him to you peeps, did i not?).. I remember crying while doing star- gazing alone that night when I suddenly saw it. With hands clasped tightly, I started wishing that I'd be out of the misery.

A stranger came into my life not long afterwards. (Combined too with the power of prayers I believe. I remember asking God so many times for signs.)

And now he's my life.

Sounded like I made it all up huh? Apparently, not.

I'll let you know if this 5th one will do its miracle like the previous 4 i've seen. Maybe yes, maybe no, only time will tell. But whatever it is, I never cling my future to this superstitious stuff. Yes, I trust too in wishing well. It helped me landed into my dream job twice. But that's a different story too. Ehe.

Let's share a story about wishful list, shall we? :)

Hi you :)

Sorry for my absence in this blogosphere. Been like what, a month?.. .I've been swarmed by workload! Pathetic, I must say. Ran here and there, that often at times I just wish one day is equals to 30 hours, not 24.

I'm physically and mentally tired, plus spiritually drenched. Even now while typing this, my mind is still wandering about work stuff, money and our future house. Everything feels like they're mashing up inside my brain...

And my mood just roll down the hill at each day, for no apparent reason. I need a real holiday, which sadly both The Hubby and I have to push aside. Gara2 barang rumah.

Cis! u The House! Kalau dah boleh masuk, takpa la jugak.. ni barang dalam bilik tido The Hubby and I makin padat since we've started to buy stuff for The House. So many things going on with both side of the lawyers, that we still haven't even masuk to the house for cleaning.

Sigh ...... How can I not be more depressed? I.AM.IN.SERIOUS.NEED.OF.BEACH. just BEACH.TAN.COLD BEER.N.HUBBY.

So many things going on, I just don't know where to start.

Life seems to float seamlessly....

Sibling Rivalry

First off, I'd like to congratulate my only brother for his UPSR result which was out last Thursday. 4A 1B! fuyoo, Dad was ecstatic, since all us thought the highest he could get is 3A. Not that we don't have that much faith in that young man, but he's famous for being careless in answering his exam papers. Congrats again, my baby bro.

During my phone call conversation with Mom, she told me the incident minutes after viewing UPSR result at brother's school. While on the drive back home from brother's school, my 14 year old sister got jealous. (She obtained 3A 2B in her UPSR, despite being top 3 students every year in primary school period). "Not fair," she lamented. " I worked hard compared to him. But he got a better result than mine."

Sibling rivalry.

Mom's comeback left me dumbfounded.

" You gotta know that he's the only one in the siblings that Mom and Dad sent to tuition class in Primary 6. You and your sisters, you all were very smart that we can trust you to do revision and excel in exam."

Sister stayed mute.

"Plus, it's important for a guy to achieve high score in exams. So that he can pick up girls even better. No girl will want to marry a man with bad achievement during their study time. Us girls? We are a natural work-hard species. Follow the life path in a correct way, don't mislead. especially at this young age, and trust me you'll be scoring many more exams not only in your study, but your life in general."

"Plus, you are a very beautiful girl. You have this beauty and the brain quality."

Sister smiled. Nodded. Hugged Mom.

I smiled on the other line hearing Mom's story...

Men, don't start attacking me. Or Mom. Gotta admit you are blessed with smart mind. We are gifted with strong determination and hard work attitude. Else, why are we the one God put to bear the pain of pregnancy and delivery pain?...

Busy!

Really want to blog about my current chaotic, but I've lack of time to do that... :( kinda miss doing blog hopping while thinking of yet another entry to type..

Will be back real soon!.. Wedding Story is queuing in line now!.. o wait, it's actually stor"IES"... 2 wedding reception with two totally different scenarios!

When It's 26 days to go...

I know that I'm going to be one unhappy bride..

I just know.......

Dee Loner is my name..

How did I get my pen name?... Why "Loner"?

It's not like I don't like my real name, but this does not mean that I'm going to reveal it anytime soon. I bet many of you my acquaintance knows it. I just feel comfortable with this, and that's that.

Here goes...

My family and close friends address me as Dee Dee, so I did a shorter version of it to -Dee.

And the Loner?.... it started 6 years ago when I was dating a policeman. We dated for 3 years. However I only had a chance to meet him every 2 months. He was in a General Operation Force, and thus he went in and out any Sabah islands for operation every 2 months. He would be at the land (Kota Kinabalu) for two months and the next month, he will be gone. How long did he go elsewhere? yea, you guessed it right. ONE pathetic MONTH.. I got so lonely back then, and cursed the name of our relationship that we fought most of the time. On the final year that we were together, I was back to my hometown for good, after completing my study in Sabah, making things harder for us as he's stuck in KK, working. And so we broke up. He just made it worse by not putting much effort in us. He took me for granted, big time.

So I started putting "Loner" for my Friendster account in 2004 and got hooked up with the name. Even now, I still feel like a loner because I have to deal with yet another LDR with The Hubby. Nonetheless, things has changed now. I'm earning(stable financial status) and The Hubby rarely whines about this arrangement. We've started our relationship as a LDR couples. So, it's no longer an issue..

That's it.. :)

You have been tagged!!!!

1. Ucap terima kasih & letakkan link orang yang memberi award ini.

Terima kasih Lizee, for the tag as well as the award :)

2. Nyatakan 7 perkara tentang diri anda.

~1. I'm fanatic about Supernatural TV series. This craziness started less than 2 months ago when I first watched an episode of the TV series that one Tuesday late night. I was never a fan, and thought the series was a horror crap movie. Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki were never once was in my mind frame before that night. And right after that first episode, I bought Season 1 and Season 2 on that same week. I'm one of their millions huge fan now!! Especially Dean Winchester's character played by J.Ackles. The Hubby knows about this maniac, and he, well, he's dealing with it. eheeee..

~2. I am one fierce driver, especially here at this worktown. I can tailgate a car that annoys me until they get uneasy and give free ways. But worry not! I know my limit though. I wouldn't want to put myself into trouble by unleashing my ego side to the wrong type of people.

~3. Until now, I'm still proud of how The Hubby proposed to me. Yeah, I gotta say that I'm a bit cocky about it and still thinks that I deserve to brag on the whole story. I mean, come on. How often do you get to hear Malaysian being proposed in front of the public (at Laundry, The Curve, eating table outside), with a big banner held by The Hubby's besties, complete with a saxofonist. And oh, it was recorded with a proper video camera. Too bad The Star press didn't make it to the proposal, else it would have been acknowledged throughout the whole Malaysia! ehee..Here's the STORY.

~4. I always feel guilty whenever I receive expensive gifts from anyone, even though it is meant for my birthday present.

~5. My English vocab is all lintang pukang. I wish it could have been better, but I'm all sloth about reading any grammar enriched English book. My source of English readings are only from the websites, magazines and reference books (that if I need to find some info for my work matter)

~6. I can be a real grumpy girl, and that is one of my side that I myself still can't figure out why since the grumpiness can be triggered over petty issues. I always remember to thank God for sending The Hubby into my life, though, as he is one of the very few who can handle me well on this matter.

~7. I was born on Christmas Day 26 years ago. By right, my birthday was supposed to be on February 20th, 1984. The story was my mom and dad were on their way to kampung for Christmas on the day, when Ma suddenly had her water broke and they changed their destination to the hospital. Pa told me that I weighed only 1.54kg when I was born, and he was the one who took care of me when I was in the incubator for 22 days. Ma only saw me after that incubation period. And oh! I'm their eldest child! :)

3. Pass kepada 15 orang award ni.

Ok.. let me see if I have 15 people to be awarded.

Cindy - http://iamyoursunshine87.blogspot.com/

BCJ -http://borneolady16.blogspot.com/

Nieza- http://toughsoftcentredcookie.blogspot.com/

Cass http://lovenhopenlove.blogspot.com/

Rach- http://java-joy.blogspot.com/

Nick- http://nicksuneo796.blogspot.com/

Min - http://nynekokawaii.blogspot.com/

EE- http://eserey.blogspot.com/

Sai http://ceritadarineraka.blogspot.com/

Cyril http://cyrildason.com/

Flo -http://theibangirl.blogspot.com/

I don't have 15 names here, but I think this will do. You may do this tagged award with your own time. no rush here :)

4. Beritahu kepada 15 orang yang bertuah ni bahawa diorang dapat award ni.

You guys are rewarded with this reward!..

And to my gal bloggers :




Now, start the listing!! Am waiting for them... :)

Annoying False Assumption..

I'm super skinny? ME?? s.k.i.n.n.y??? You have GOT TO B KIDDING ME. I am not that all thin la. I'm normal for my height. My body size is 1 to 2. I can't fit into any size ZERO clothes. My BMI is yes, slightly under normal measure, but it doesn't give you the right to tell me that I'm as skinny as the picture below.

I consider myself a slim woman.. and of course, gorgeous.. ;P

Here I am, thinking extra hard on how to create a catchy post for this Allunique contest... *tik tok tik tok...*... Can't find any inspiration to make it happen.. NADA! WRITER's BLOCK!! aiyo.. How to even stand a chance to win this contest?

The winning prize offered is worth RM1000 of Allunique's product. It's a new brand name for me, but their product is something I'm eager to try. Thalgo and Unisense(ah, this one has been around, ain't they?).. Thalgo product especially has been in a recommended list of skin regime p products of late by many local magazines. Who knows it might be THE cure for my never-ending oily face?

Okay! I've got an idea already.............

Maybe not...

:(

p/s : Read ALLUNIQUE CONTEST IN SARAWAKBLOGGERS.COM to participate the contest.. Wish me luck though!.. :)

New Layout

How do you like this new layout? no more blue colour background. All the gadget has now moved to the left side instead of the previous right. It took me a while to get used to it, but sometimes, it's good to have changes. To see things in a different angle. Sometimes it's for the better you. :)



Anyways, I'm editing some pics of randomness, out of boredom. Perhaps I'll have ideas to write by doing so. Later!!
(Jensen R. Ackles) Such a hunk!

Yoo Hoo! Anybody home?

pBeen outta blog world for quite some time. S.O.R.R.Y.. I doubt that anyone miss my writing, but it's best to apologise anyway. My Internet line hasn't been on my side of late. You see, I normally blog when I'm in office (the line is free! and yeah, I'm aware that it's unethical to do that. Being a normal human being, I just can't help it. ehe.) and some times when I'm back at my hometown, Kuching. I don't have a broadband just yet, because..... ermmm because..... *I just don't know..* I hafta use Facebook mobile to update everything, and it's so not convenient considering the mobile phone aint anything BB or that big screen Nokia.

Anyway, updates on my life. I've been kinda busy with work stuff. My unit(Food Safety and Quality Unit), we are required to go to almost every food factory to distribute forms. The form is to be filled by the premise owners which later is to be registered into MOH database. Just a lil info here, Ministry of Health has a new law called Food Hygiene Regulation 2009 to support the current Food Act 1983. This new law has many more new rules, but all are cater to protect consumer and of course to help our country's food industry. This law is only going to be fully implemented in 4 years to come. So as for now, we are helping the food premises to get used to this new law and of course to register them all into database. (i'm repeating myself here, aren't I?)

And oh! I'm flying back to my hometown tomorrow morning. My dear sister is getting engaged tomorrow! YAY YAY! They've been dating for almost 7 years, and it's such a great feeling to finally knowing that they're settling down.

Hrmm.. what else?... About my big day? It's still in progress. Can you believe that I've yet to get my white dress for this?? I'm going to walk the aisle in less than 4 months and I have not even get a dress for that. Such procrastinator. The Hubby and I are more concern about our US trip rather than the big day itself. oooo, speaking of US, man we sure have a lot of place to 'conquer'.haha.. Universal Studio, Las Vegas, Grand Canyon, San Franciso, to name a few. Thanks to my sister in law, since she's the big part of this. Love her to bits!...

I'm off for a visa interview at US Embassy early next month. Wish me luck ya!

My Discovery

I love magazines. Narrow it to specific; it's the beauty and fashion magazines. And health magazines too. Too bad I ditched Reader's Digest. Yea yea, I know I should have read that to enhance my vocab and all, but it's just too pricey nowadays.. Maybe that's why my English grammar deteriorates with time. Sigh..

I better start conversing the language with its correct grammar, before flying off to The States this Christmas. Else, no one there will understand the words that comes out of my mouth... Aiya!

Anyway, back to my topic, I have a hUGEEE addiction to magazines. I realise the addiction when I was doing my spring cleaning last weekend, updating the living room shelf. sorting out mags of previous 2-3 years with the current ones...

Daym! HUGE PILE of MAGAZINES! (well, at least for me. ;p)

Wanna see?

CLEO mag is a must-have every month..

The Ring

What? You too thought it's a cheap ring? tsk tsk tsk.. For goodness sake, it's a solitaire cut diamond..

Just because diamond is well, sad to say, not really acceptable here in Borneo (for most), where others prefer gold and white gold, they can throw the assumption that mine looks like a costume jewelery instead, and that it's not really an official wedding ring.. blardy arsehole betul...

Not tryna brag, the ring's retail price could afford us to tailored-made a super beautiful wedding gown(try few grands)...Not rental one ah! geez..

Top 3

My top 3 2010 resolutions. (I actually have 10 resolutions for this year, but am gonna share just the ultimate THREE.. .):
1. Eat better.
2. Exercise more.
3. Less grumpy.

What's yours? :)

It's The Season to be Jolly!!

For me, the best(est) thing about Christmas is unwrapping presents underneath the Christmas tree. Yes, of course I do know why Christians celebrate the occasion, but yeah, I still reckon presents as the most important element in it.hehehe. It's a season of jolly! :)

We've been eyeing the tonnes of gift placed at that living room corner right after everyone had put their shares there. My two little siblings kept on checking the gifts and squeeked in excitement when they found theirs. "When can we open?".. "In a while," Mom replied.

OPEN PRESENT TIME!( we opened them after dinner on the 25th.)... But instead of everyone barging and digging into the piles of gifts, we took turns. We started with the youngest one, my 11 year old brother. I told him to unwrap the one I had him as the last. When he opened it, his expression changed. There's nothing but a whole bunch of tomato ketchup small packets from McD. I told him to dig deeper, when he then found a note. "Find yr pressie in kitchen store. Now!" He went into a blur mode that I had to ushered him to the kitchen. He still was blank on what to look at inside the store... I had to give him a real specific instruction on the location of the present.

After a while, his eyes found something woody. I told him to pulled it out. "A SKATEBOARD!!!!" whoaaahhh.. His face expression was priceless! "My happiest Christmas ever!" He then gave me a thank-you peek on my cheeks and started to play with his new toy.

He was actually kinda sad earlier the day when he didn't see any wrappings that resembles the shape of a skateboard being wrapped and put at the Christmas tree. Mom told me that he later hinted her to get him one since Mom promised him that she'll buy him one should no one give him that as present. Aaa, I love seeing him happy and smiley. My only brother ma...

All in love, everyone were happy with their gifts. I got double the presents of everything since my birthday falls on Christmas Day! hehehehee.. Happy Birthday to Me!! I'm officially 26. woot woot! the 25 was a great year to me, but I'm looking forward to see what this 26 has to offer. hehehe..and it's my last year of having a Ms. in front of my name. (hopefully thing goes well!)... Oh ya, I got Crocs shoes, clutch, makeup set, handphone cover and many more( and I love the ceramic piggy bank my sis gave me).. happy giler.. hehehe.. And the rest of my family members got themselves bags, backpacks, security lock for car..mmm..what else aah? ...banyak2 lagi la! hohoho

Have the Merriest Christmas of all, ya'll! (I can't wait to get pressies from The Fiance. Meeting him after New Year...Still didn't manage to celebrate Christmas/my Birthday and New Year even after 3 years together.. :( )

Sometimes ..

Sometimes I pity her. Like she's a real pathetic, showing off her new life and stuff without privatising her profile.( She opens her FB account for the public, dedicating the act to ME.)
But there are times (well, most of the time), I hate her. The real hypocrite...Bitching ppl when she herself is a real bitch...

Life...just suck. But then again,it helps to put the Earth at its accordingly place...

So tempted to upload her pic here, but I guess I still have empathy for a person who once "kicked me over and over again that I had no chance to get up whatmore to fight back"

When Boss Yells...

I miss the days when my superior yelled at me for his attitude of being a boss(for no solid reason, seriously...). I'd later walk out of his room, knowing it's time for yet another gossipping( and cursing) time as well and, of course, started to work my ass on whatever ridiculous task he had assigned me to do. It's good sometimes though, because with that you will understand more about his attitude at workplace..I didn't last long though. Hahahhaa.. (why the heck did I mention about understandiing him at the first place....bleurrrgghhh!hahah)

Been almost 3 years since I left that kind of working scenario...I resigned from the company, , hopped from a private sector to government.. totally different environment for me.. I was an auditee last time, and now I get to be an auditor for premises..hahaha.. watta switch of role...Perhaps I should tell you about my experience of working at a chicken slaughtering plant in future post huh?....

Anyway, back to my story.... which happened this morning..

"Dee, Boss is asking you to be present at his office room"

"Now??" " Yes"

*******

I got scolded for the first time by this new boss ( He joined the department a month ago....and well, he has the reputation of being stern, and ermmm scary). I've never been scolded by my other previous bosses ever since I entered this department. ..He pointed out his points, I tried to defend myself, but he then shut me up with words.I could feelmy cheeks went burning hot, my ears were salsaing spice... Somehow, after a while,I managed to smile at him after his sarcastic remarks to me in front of 3 others colleagues. He surprisingly return my smile, adding "Dee, go find the real deal about this matter and please clarify the procedure with them all. Including to the factory involved.. And you," he pointed his finger to my colleagues," don't simply assume stuff. Thank God I went pretty humble by simply saying I can't say much because I need to refer back the procedure. (one of the reason why he almost yelled at me.. )

But funny as it may sound, I didn't really feel as embarrassed as I was 3 years ago Maybe it's because I've been through worse than that with previous boss... What doesn't kill you, well, it does makes you stronger.

21.12.2012 ...Movie 2012

Have you guys watch this movie? .. I actually just finished watching this movie in cinema like 3 hours ago. My God.. you all has GOT to watch this movie. 2012 is directed by Roland Emmerich and comprises of some famous actors like John Cusack ( I fell in love with his acting after Running Jury), Amanda Peet and Thandie Newton.

This movie is about the earth's Dooms Day which is on 21 December 2012. Whatever you may think of how our Doom's Day is gonna be like, it's all that or much worse. I felt like I was on a roller coaster ride thoughout the entire movie, screaming and kept saying OMG(and shiiitttt :P). Dunno if I can handle it well if it had been a 3D movie..There's lots of sad moment and sad goodbyes as well..I seriously tahan my airmata.. My brain immediately went to my-family-is-everything mode. What if 21.12.12 is really the day when Mother Earth expires?.. Am I really prepared to meet my Maker?.. Death is inevitable, of course. But often at times, we just need more time.....

Anyway, I don't want to be a spoiler here. If you haven't watch the movie, go watch!! :) Then tell me what you think about it alright?

Till then!

Lucky Bloggers..

Some bloggers I noticed are very lucky. They get a chance to meet big time people, or free food sampling or products. Sometimes, I wish I have a glimpse of taste of those experience. From my own initiative... not accompanying the person who were invited or something..

Anyway, sometimes, something are not meant to be. And I guess I'm fine with it. I love reading the blog of those.... Especially bloggers like Daniel and Cyril.